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Tuesday, 17 June 2008

  • Bitch Blog - It's of no concern

    I've been really depressed lately, which is why I haven't been keeping up with my bible blog like I want. The whole point was to get a regular schedule, but when life seems un motivating and you'd rather cry yourself to sleep its hard. Don't get me wrong I didn't abandon God, I talk to him because right now he seems my only friend in the world.

    I'm having a consitently hard time adjusting to life back in LZ. It started out find Chi-town time workign and camping withe peeps all in the first two weeks, but maybe I got my expectations too high form that. I feel like all I do now is work. No one ever contacts me form around Lake Zurich. I feel so alone. And I try hard to find some one to hang with, but it never works. I think that's why I'm online so much; in hopes of someone reply or contacting me to see me. But now I have even had occurances of being blown off. My only condolunces have been my IU friends IMing me messaging me and plannign to see. I saw them once already this summer and was looking forawrd to another reunion for my birthday! Which all I could ask for is my two worlds ot come otgether and have fun. I don't even care about presents of cake. Just the presence of my firends. But now my plans are falling apart just as I though I found hope of being happy about where I am in LZ. I need social interaction that's just how I am. I get my energy and pep from people.

    I'm not blaming anyone, in fact I'm convinced this is mostly me being the drama queen I am. And there are those I have seen this summer. But it's just not the socila stimulation I'm used to from school or even years past. I start obviously expressing my depression on facebook and people then respond to me and that does depress me. Though I appreciate your concern I'd appreciate some good times too, instead of your sympathy.

    This note doesn't have to mean anything I just really need to write my feelings. W/e I'll feel fine in the morning work and sleep like always.  I wait for God to answer my please for social motivation and stimulation. I felt there my be a glimmer of hope tonight, figures that high leaves as  finally realize this weekend schedule shifting was in vain.

    But on the bright side I felt moved by God to move forward with soemthing I wanted. HE let me make the choice and that I'm ready to face. I hope it goes as well as I want to make it.



Thursday, 12 June 2008

  • 1 kings 8

    So I've never actually used the podcast option on itunes before this blog. Mostly because at home I had dial-up prior to this year and there for never had patience to explore. and didn't have the time to explore at school so it went rather unnoticed. So I think I'm going backwards right now. but that'll be fine until I run out of books. lol I'm jsut kind of playing this by ear we'll see how this goes.

    notes: The temple and the arch of the covenant. Agreement made with Israelites held here. Temple to honor Lord God, "will not build temple, your son will." There is no God like you. obey with sincerity. Kept word and fulfilled what is promised. God does not live on the earth. asking for response - favorably. be willing to forgive the accused. No one is sinless. all the Good the lord had done.

    A large part of this brought me back again to Torch on Monday with that chincy little animation the showed of the temple, but more so how it lead to the church today compared to before Jesus. I love the line will not build a temple. your son will speaks to me almost as saying it's not the establishment that matters but the foundation you lay down for the future ot follow and grow upon. And this whole passage seemed to end in the idea that God is there and listens and answers always. It's finding the good and remembering to thank God for that because God is good.

Wednesday, 11 June 2008

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